Beautiful Mind

Happy Sunday Morning Little Bloggie! :)

So, I logged into blogger this morning with the intention of ranting about our current global condition, and the effects of corrupt government and the FDA. However, in reading the last few blogs of mine, I realize that I have been going down a negative spiral lately. I am going to do my best to think positively and not worry about the things I cannot change or fix in my current life situation, nationwide, or globally while continuously seeking the truth.
I have been spending so much time on Esoteric Tube lately and even though its good to know the truth about what is going on, I think it is what is getting me off track. So I need to set some boundaries as an independent thinker, a truth-er, and spiritualist. What I can do is help to solve the worlds problems by being aware, making others aware, and doing the best I can to remain positive that we will overcome the obstacles we face. In my quest of spirituality I've learned that you cannot give to much thought to worldly matters. However, at some point, the independent thinker, truth-er, and spiritualist all have to coincide with each other. Whether we like it or not, we are among living, we still require food, shelter, health, seek quality of life, etc. Each of these require money and lets face it, this is politics.
As an Independent thinker, it's necessary to have opinions. As a truth-er, it's necessary to get the facts and know where you stand on them or else it can get the best of you, physically. The trick for the spiritualist, is to remain positive and at the same time disconnect with it so it doesn't sever your spirit.

Love and Light

~Tracie

Baby Blues

It's so weird how at a certain point and age in your life the baby blues hit you like a ton of bricks and when it hits, it hits hard. That's what is happening to me right now anyway. I'm not sure if it's because I just got married, or seeing other people with babies or what. It's like my body has this instinct and it craves to be a nurturing mother and all of a sudden too. Weird huh? I think it's weird that I have no control over it because I think I used to have more control over it than I do now.
My husband (Formally known as "Mr. February") thinks I'm a little obsessive with buying pregnancy books, taking the long route through a store to go through the baby clothes section, but in the end he knows he wants a baby too! Maybe he's right...I am jumping ahead, but I just can't help it! I'm thinking he's a little afraid of loosing xbox time...my thought on that is I hope he grows up a little before we do have one so I don't have two babies on my hands. I just want one for now and it looks like I got it :) Happy Saturday!

Working Girl Dilemma

Good Morning little Bloggie. Today I am a little down in the dumps. I'm pretty sure it has to do with the company party I attended this past Friday. I have been working for my company for 2.5 years now so I am comfortable and happy with my job and co-workers for the most part.
At the party I was introduced to one of my clients for the first time, and I was truly excited to meet them after all this time. Once I was introuduced, one of the first things they said to me is "we have to admit, we told your boss we didn't think you were going to make it for a long time but now you've got it and girl you kick ass!" Although it is a compliment to my current work, it still hurts that they thought this and communitcated it with my bosses. I take great pride in my work and really do the best I can so when I hear that the best I can isn't near good enough, it just feels like a slap in the face. When I first started working there, they gave me a HUGE workload full of their most high maintenance clients and more than anyone else (they must have had a lot of faith in me) but it really affected the attention I was able to give each of my clients individually. I know that is what happened but they don't know that part of the story.
So, I'm not sure where to take it from here. I know that I am going to continue to do the best that I can and even try a little harder. I am also going to try to not think about what was said because it doesn't do any good to beat myself up over it. The good news is, in their opinion is that I "kick ass"...so whatever.