Weathering the Storm

Beautiful Mind

2012-01-29T13:17:00.023-06:00

Happy Sunday Morning Little Bloggie! :)

So, I logged into blogger this morning with the intention of ranting about our current global condition, and the effects of corrupt government and the FDA. However, in reading the last few blogs of mine, I realize that I have been going down a negative spiral lately. I am going to do my best to think positively and not worry about the things I cannot change or fix in my current life situation, nationwide, or globally while continuously seeking the truth.
I have been spending so much time on Esoteric Tube lately and even though its good to know the truth about what is going on, I think it is what is getting me off track. So I need to set some boundaries as an independent thinker, a truth-er, and spiritualist. What I can do is help to solve the worlds problems by being aware, making others aware, and doing the best I can to remain positive that we will overcome the obstacles we face. In my quest of spirituality I've learned that you cannot give to much thought to worldly matters. However, at some point, the independent thinker, truth-er, and spiritualist all have to coincide with each other. Whether we like it or not, we are among living, we still require food, shelter, health, seek quality of life, etc. Each of these require money and lets face it, this is politics.
As an Independent thinker, it's necessary to have opinions. As a truth-er, it's necessary to get the facts and know where you stand on them or else it can get the best of you, physically. The trick for the spiritualist, is to remain positive and at the same time disconnect with it so it doesn't sever your spirit.

Love and Light

~Tracie

Baby Blues

2012-01-28T14:05:00.008-06:00

It's so weird how at a certain point and age in your life the baby blues hit you like a ton of bricks and when it hits, it hits hard. That's what is happening to me right now anyway. I'm not sure if it's because I just got married, or seeing other people with babies or what. It's like my body has this instinct and it craves to be a nurturing mother and all of a sudden too. Weird huh? I think it's weird that I have no control over it because I think I used to have more control over it than I do now.
My husband (Formally known as "Mr. February") thinks I'm a little obsessive with buying pregnancy books, taking the long route through a store to go through the baby clothes section, but in the end he knows he wants a baby too! Maybe he's right...I am jumping ahead, but I just can't help it! I'm thinking he's a little afraid of loosing xbox time...my thought on that is I hope he grows up a little before we do have one so I don't have two babies on my hands. I just want one for now and it looks like I got it :) Happy Saturday!

Working Girl Dilemma

2012-01-22T10:55:00.015-06:00

Good Morning little Bloggie. Today I am a little down in the dumps. I'm pretty sure it has to do with the company party I attended this past Friday. I have been working for my company for 2.5 years now so I am comfortable and happy with my job and co-workers for the most part.
At the party I was introduced to one of my clients for the first time, and I was truly excited to meet them after all this time. Once I was introuduced, one of the first things they said to me is "we have to admit, we told your boss we didn't think you were going to make it for a long time but now you've got it, girl" Although it is kind of a compliment to my current work, it still hurts that they thought this and communitcated it with my bosses. I take great pride in my work and really do the best I can so when I hear that the best I can isn't near good enough, it just feels like a slap in the face. When I first started working there, they gave me a HUGE workload full of their most high maintenance clients and more than anyone else (they must have had a lot of faith in me) but it really affected the attention I was able to give each of my clients individually. I know that is what happened but they don't know that part of the story.
So, I'm not sure where to take it from here. I know that I am going to continue to do the best that I can and even try a little harder. I am also going to try to not think about what was said because it doesn't do any good to beat myself up over it. The good news is, in their opinion is that I "got it now"...so whatever.

Happy Birthday to Me!

2011-07-16T10:51:00.003-05:00

Today I turned the ripe old age of 28. I remember a time when I never thought i would live to see myself at this age. At 15, 28 seemed a lifetime away...and it was!

28 is nothing to complain about though, I still have my health, my future, my youthfulness and I am still having fun. But this year in particular is going to be a good year for me. This is the year that everything will be turned around for the better. I will be marrying the most awesome person i have ever met this year. He truly is a good person and has a good heart. I honestly cannot say that about many people these days. His family is just like him, very kindhearted. I am so lucky to be marrying him!

I feel good about my financial situation this year too unlike the other years. This year I am credit card debt free! I didn't say debt free, i just said credit card debt free. It doesn't sound like a big deal but it is when you have had to live off of credit cards just to get by in the past...college days mostly. Now all i have is my student loans, and car note! It feels good and peaceful to be in this financial position. A year ago I was far far from it and had a long road in front of me.

I am also going on a really good honeymoon to playa del carmen in a few months with Dave. And we have it paid for already! I'm so excited, I have needed a real vacation for years and this will be just what the doctor ordered! I consider it my reward for getting my financial butt in shape! lol.

So here's to a peaceful and happy year, 28 and still counting! :)

Mr. February - Update

2011-05-08T09:41:00.005-05:00

This morning I was reading back through some of my old posts on this little bloggie and oh how I make myself giggle. I did realize however that I completely forgot to give an update on my current life situation (if you even care lol) So anyway, I'm still with Mr. February and we have been together now for 1 year 3 months! That is damn near a record breaker for a guy in my life. We now live together by ourselves in a 2 bedroom apartment in the suburbs of DFW and oh what a cute and quaint life we have made for ourselves too! :) We are also engaged to be married in October and headed to Mexico for our much needed honeymoon vacation! I'm very very excited about that one! You know that song (can't remember who sings it) Aruba, Jamaica, oooo i wanna take ya.....we'll get there fast and then we'll take it slow, that's where we wanna go...blah blah. WELL, that song has been stuck in my head for days which makes it very difficult to be at work sometimes! Speaking of work I am still at the same place doing the same thing as a peon but that doesn't really matter as long as I enjoy what I'm doing eh? Here's what I would rather do with my time. I intend to open an organic herb, spice, and essential oil shop, maybe throw in some healing crystals too. Doesn't that sound wonderful? Well it does to me. I also intend to win the lottery. So i bought my first ticket last week! Didn't win, but I will! lol Anyway, that's that so have a Happy Sunday! Peace.

Religion Vs. Reality

2011-05-07T08:43:00.036-05:00

For the past 3 years I have been on a spiritual path leading me away from any and all religion of which I was raised on. It's actually kind of a scary thing to turn your back on something you've been taught your whole life and embrace something your family deeply disapproves of. But the fact is, once you start questioning religion from an "honest to God" point of view, it's extremely hard to go back to religion. It's like an awakening and you don't want to go back to sleep. The problem I have with it is that it's very lonely on this end of it. Yes, I still believe in God with every molecule of my body, mind, and soul, but I do not believe in religion. I believe God exists in us, through us, and all around us. I also believe we are God. I think my religious family and friends would agree with this to some extent, but tell them "I am god", and they call you a blasphemer. They see only half the picture and trying to explain it to them seems to be useless because to them, the very topic is blasphemous.

My entire family and many of my friends are religious people and they are wonderful, sweet, loving people so there is nothing wrong with them following whatever religion they feel necessary. I have to admit that I do have a hard time with their constant attempts to "save me". Here is what I think is sweet, they love me and they want me to be happy eternally with them (in their perspective) and the only way is to believe that God is going to damn me to hell if i don't follow their religion so they want me to follow it. These things have been hard-coded in their head for decades and decades, three times a week, so it's hard to even bring it up without getting judged and ridiculed for it...it's easier sometimes to let them think you believe what they do, which doesn't feel good to me but it is what it is.

5 Years ago, i was the most devout Christian do-gooder, girl next door type you would ever meet so i know the Christian views. I remember all those questions people have as a religious-type that are always unanswered by the elders as "because we're christian and that's how we do it" or "that's just way it is" or "don't question it or there will be consequences by god" I also have lived in reality for the past 3 years and reality has answers that are not fairy tale, mythological, or out-dated made up speeches that have been passed down from generation to generation and changed along the way to fit into your situation perfectly and make you feel guilty for the rest of your life.

The reality: Humans are not here to live an unhappy life, do what makes you truly, "honest to god" happy and the only way to know exactly what makes you honest to God happy is to go to your soul (your inner God)to find that out, not your mind. For example, if you think it will make you happy to cheat on your wife or husband...go inside and ask yourself. Will this make me truly honest to god happy? Your mind and body may tell you yes, but your soul may tell you something different. Why? Maybe because it is not who you are to hurt your spouse, or live with the guilt, or hide something from him or her. However, your soul may tell you yes. Shocker coming from me, I know! Or most importantly, your soul doesn't seek worldly pleasures. Here's why your soul may say yes: Because it is "who you are" and your soul wants you to experience who you really are (God) and the only way to do this is to have have experiences to bring you closer to that realization. In some cases, cheating on your husband/wife may bring you closer to the realization of who you are more than any other experience and knowing exactly who you really are and experiencing it is the only pathway to peace and happiness (heaven).

Let me tell you a personal life experience of mine. I got married at 22 to my now ex-husband that told me he wanted to cheat on me 4 months after we got married with a girl he met from work. Gutsy he was! I was at the point in my life when i was a devout church-going christian that thought this is the worst thing you could ever do to someone (I still have an opinion about it but that doesn't matter here). He didn't do it, but he asked for a divorce instead. Which I refused to give to him until he did the act due to my religious reasons. Eventually he did, I gave him his divorce and he eventually married this girl and had a baby with her. I now truly believe they are happy and perfect for each other and I don't mean it in an offensive or sarcastic way either. Don't think for a second this was easily realized because I had nearly made myself crazy over it for years. It wasn't until after I left religion that I realized how much I admired him for doing what he did regardless of the religious judgemental attitudes and condemnations he got from me and just about everyone he and I knew. Yes, I admire him for cheating on me! Because he did whatever it took to make himself Honest to God happy and he went inward to do it. He didn't listen to anyone, just his inner truth to live the life he needed to experience. He knew what he had to do to expireience "who he really is" and now we are both happier and closer to the realization of "who we are" as individuals so I thank God that he followed his heart and soul. To me, the most admirable characteristic anyone can have is follwoing and living ones own truth.

Peace. :)

Birth of a Yogini

2010-10-11T18:59:00.008-05:00

This week I have begun seriously practicing the art of yoga in a hot yoga studio in an effort to raise my conciseness to a higher level and to give myself an outlet for stress relief. Yoga has so many health benefits and although I am not aware of all of them, it is my intention to study this practice further.
I have learned a lot my first week of yoga. For instance, Yoga is not intended to have extreme physical stress on your body. It focuses on stretching every muscle in your body and holding those poses for extended time is what is what takes your heart rate up making it a great workout. What is interesting is that the yoga classrooms are 98.6 degrees (same temperature as your body) with a 60% humidity. This is what makes you drench in sweat so it is detoxifying as well. From what I see, it not only detoxifies your body, but it detoxifies your mind as well.
The spiritual side of yoga is the meditation of being one with your body and your mind. It is the union of your higher and lower self. Most people I have met in class do yoga strictly for it's physical benefits without regards to the fact that there is anything spiritual about it. Yoga stems from the Hindu religion but it's not limited to Hindu religious practices or any other religion for that matter. It disturbs me how close-minded most of the world is these days. I see many more waking up each day and questioning their old ways so it is my intention to plant seeds in their hearts of the amazing life we are experiencing as God.

Tapping Into My HIgher Conscience

2010-09-26T14:30:00.008-05:00

With all the changes I am facing and the increasingly high levels of stress at this point in my life, I have decided today that I need a spiritual rejuvenation. I need to get back to the "me" that is enlightened and ready to take on the world with a higher consciousness. I can tell and so can anyone who reads my blog lately that I have been headed down the spiral instead of moving up it...and I am not going down like that!
Today is Sunday, and what better day to get back to a spiritual wellness than a quiet peaceful Sunday afternoon in late September? This is todays purpose for me and I intend to take full advantage of this opportunity. :) Today I am focusing my attention inward and trying to get down to the root of the emotional state I am in. I will not listen to my mind rambling relentlessly, I will listen to my emotions and inner truth and get to the true reasons certain things are bothering me. I will do my best to dwell in the NOW without revisiting any Past events or actions and thoughts for the future.

"When your consciousness is directed outward, mind and world arise. When it is directed inward, it realizes its own Source and returns home into the Unmanifested" - Eckhart Tolle

Leap of Faith

2010-09-25T12:00:00.009-05:00

This past year has been such a whirlwind of life changes that I can hardly recognize my self from a year ago. To this very day last year I was living in the small country city of Lufkin in East Texas. I was working as a mortgage underwriter for a local bank doing residnetial loans for the country town folk there and I had been living on my own in a small apartment for about 3 years at that point. There was no one worth dating there so I stayed solo most of my time there after going through a painful divorce at only 23 years old.
Today, I live in Dallas, workng for a mortgage company as a peon but making decent money. I have completely lost my religion, and moved on to more spiritual and enlightening avenues. I have also been in a realationship (obviously from my previous posts) which has not been very common for me since my divorce. Things are moving rapidly for us and I am almost dreading the next step in our relationship. We are moving in together ONE MONTH from now and his uncle will be living with us. HUGE CHANGE! Being single and living on my own for the past 5 years is making this change very very hard for me to accept. It's not about him, i love him dearly and want to take this leap of faith with him, but it's the huge change in my life that I am having trouble with.
I have exactly one month until I move in with him. I haven't done a thing to make this move and I get very upset and anxiety everytime I think about it. This is the end of an era for me. The end of my single life and all the joys of living solo. But now I am moving in with him and his uncle will be living there with us too. I can't even imagine how this will turn out. Moving in with two guys is a much bigger anxiety attack than just one if you haven't already guessed. I think i'm going to need a therapist!

Life's an Adventure!

2010-07-25T10:49:00.011-05:00

My life is an amazing adventure that never seems to surprise me. Even when life takes a turn that isn't so much fun it's still an adventure in itself. That's the way I see it, and I love adventure. You have to take life as a whole, not just the good times and avoid the hard times...that's life and we should embrace it all. I am trying to reach the spritual level of being fearless of life, it's tough and I still have a long way to go but here's the guidelines i've come up with so far.

-Never be afraid to die--Fear is derived upon the end result of death, and when you're not afraid of death you're not afraid of life. The trick is to understand that death is not the end of life.

-What you resist, persists. For instance, if you are fearful of loosing your job or family member and frantically resist it, you literally create and live it. Instead, embrace it and take the steps you need to take for when or if it does.

-Just breath--go inward constantly and meditate. When things less desired happen, reflect on them. Ask yourself, what is the absolute worst that could happen from this? Accept that possibility and move on!

-Do things you never would have done before, live life to the fullest and do anything and everything you want--You reallly have absolutely nothing to loose!

-There is no hell unless you create it. Sin and hell is just something the governements made up thousands of years ago to control the populace. It worked and is still working. There is nothing wrong or right about anything. It just is what it is!--Follow the golden rule "Treat others the way you would want to be treated".

Follow these basic guidelines and you will have the most liberating, rewarding, and adventurous life you can imagine! :)

Changing my Relocity

2010-06-05T13:16:00.009-05:00

Good Morning little bloggie. I'm beside myself today and trying to reflect on all the craziness in my life lately. For starters I am still with Mr. February! Yeah, I'm shocked someone actually survived four months. It's rare for me to keep any guy around for three months so you know he has to be special if he's made it to four. :) It doesn't sound like a very long time though. It almost sounds ridiculous to say this but it feels like we've been together for a year or more...is that weird? It feels so complicated that it needs some kind of scientific name or something...lets call it Relocity: the rate at which a relationship changes. :-)

It's definitely too soon to tell anything for sure and I'm doing my damnedest to keep my guard up so my heart doesn't get crushed to pieces for the Millionth time, but it's not as easy as it sounds. One thing I've learned throughout my dating days is that the relocity of a relationship is never the same from couple to couple. I've also learned that the faster your relocity, the more chance you have of getting hurt and feeling like a dumbass in the end. I agree with a lot of people when they say we are moving too fast in our relationship. On the outside looking in, they are so right. But at the same time, I feel like Mr. February and I are the only ones that can gage our relationship status.

If it can be harmful to have a relocity that moves too fast, does that mean there is also a point when your relocity is too slow and if so, how do you find the happy medium? I've been paying attention to my current wingwoman who has a record of very slow relocity in relationships. Atfer two years she is still recovering from being dumped out of a 10 year relationship from a guy that says he thought they were just lovers and nothing more. She says she ignored the signs and wanted to avoid confrontation and that is the only reason it lasted so long without taking any steps forward or backward in their relationship. So now 10 years of this young womans life has been thrown away due to slow relocity. She claims she has always been taught to move very slow and it's the right way to do things according to her parents. As her wingman, I've noticed her relocity is stagnant because of these preconceived traditional secret guidelines the guy has to follow before a date but has no idea they even exist.

So is it worth it to take your time to do it the "right way" or is it just waisting time? I think our generation has a distorted sense of reality when it comes to just about everything. Everything we do is based on a preconceived notion of the "right way to do things" and the "wrong way to do things". I'm sad to say this but it's evident that we have lost our roots of intuition and forgotten how to just follow our hearts.

2010-03-14T18:23:00.003-05:00

Things have been really super busy lately which is why i haven't made very much time to blog but I miss it! So what's new with me? Well, I have two new twin nieces and 1 new nephew which makes me an Aunt of 3 boys and two girls! :) Isn't that so awesome?!? I can't help that my excitement is sometimes put aside when people make the comment "ohh tracie, you're falling behind, you better get busy having kids!" UGH, really? I mean, is that really nessesary? It's mostly family that does it but I can't help but to think they like making those comments and that it somehow makes them feel better to TRY to make me feel insecure. The weird thing about it is that i've come to the realization that it doesn't matter what they think or the silly comments they make because when all is said and done, i am completely happy with where I am at in life. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, it doesn't but that doesn't make me any less happier than anyone else that does and I wish they would just realize that. So anyways, enough about that. Mr. February is coming over soon so I have to get ready and I'm running late! :) Have a great Sunday!

Update

2010-01-31T18:54:00.003-06:00

Okay, so Mr. January went bye bye last week. I dumped Mr. January because he said he doesn't ever want kids someday. Even though I liked him, I have to be realistic and make decisions based on who I am and who I want Mr. Right to be, not Mr. Right Now. Why waste my time with someone I don't see myself being happy with in the long haul? Yep, so there's my excuse. I talked to an ex-boyfriend yesterday and he said he thinks i use men and dump them the moment they fall for me. I hate being characterized like that, but I know it looks that way on the outside. Oh well, who cares what people think right?

Nerd Alert

2010-01-16T22:39:00.004-06:00

Man, it's great having a three day weekend! Last night I went to the Milo Butterfingers bar with a group and some friends for a Foosball tournament. It was pretty fun and I actually played all the way to the finals with my impressively smooth bar game skills. ;-) Yeah, yeah but my partner and I still lost to a pair of foreigners in the end so I can't brag too much.

Today I went to the Fort Worth Zoo and hung out all day with Mr. January. I'm not sure if I've just spent too much time with him or what but I'm already starting to take a few steps back from him. I noticed his cool factor wearing a little thin when he decided to wear a backpack with a water reservoir and actually used it at the zoo. Umm can we say NERD?? I just looked the other way like i didn't see it happen and hoped to god it didn't.

I'm going to give the poor guy a break--He's Mr. January so I atleast need to give him till the end of the month to regain his stature! Ohh well, I'm just not going to worry about it right now--what happens happens, eh?

Mr. January

2010-01-12T19:20:00.004-06:00

Meet the current man of the month, Brian! Strangely enough, I don't have many complaints about this one. Is it actually possible that the men in Dallas are so much more datable than my small home town of Lufkin?? Hell yeah! He has a great job, would never even dream of wearing cowboy boots, and he's not obsessed with his mama! He is already scoring mega man points in my book.

I picked this one up at the Roulette table during a hot streak at a New Years Eve bash. My charm never worked quicker than on Mr. January. How could he resist me anyway right? :-P j/k

The real question here is how long is he going to last? Most men don't make it past the 3 month mark...I usually loose interest completely and never answer the phone. But this guy seems a little more up to speed and ahead of the game--almost like he's born to be a heartbreaker which also makes him super sexy! Oh well, it's nothing I haven't seen before...Bring it on Mr. January!

My first Snow Angel

2009-12-25T10:04:00.004-06:00

Oh the weather outside is frightful, but the snow is so delightful--nananananana let it snow, let it snow, let it snow! :-) Okay, I don't know all the right words to that song but who cares, it's Christmas! I had so much fun last night playing in the snow. I have never seen sand-like snow in my life! I truely felt like a kid again--it was cold as a witches titty but I didn't care. I lost feeling in my fingers and toes within the first 5 minutes I was out there. We are so deprived of good snow in Texas...the last time it snowed on Christmas in Dallas was the year 1947--way back in the caveman days.

Well anyways, the roads look pretty decent so I am truckin' it to Houston for my family Christmas...Hope everyone has a good one! Merry Christmas

Ho Ho Ho--Santa found his Mojo!

2009-12-24T14:48:00.007-06:00

Wow, it's been forever since I've posted anything to this blog. I'm so sorry i abandoned you little bloggie!

Well, today is Christmas Eve and my first Winter in big city DFW. The weather is definitely not what I'm used to. For instance, there is a blizzard outside. I haven't seen snow since I was a wee little thing and I know for a fact I've never been in a blizzard. I'm not even sure how to drive in a blizzard, are you? I mean, the closest I have ever come to one was those little snickers ice cream thingies at Dairy Queen--mmm that sounds good right now. Anyway, I'm supposed to go to Houston for our family's Christmas tomorrow and I'm a little uneasy about the 4 hours drive in the snow needless to say. Mom says I need to leave today but I couldn't tell her I have a date tonight with my ex-boyfriend that I just dumped to have Christmas Fettuccine and watch a movie. She doesn't like him at all and I really don't wanna hear it from her about it. Why am I going on a date if i just dumped him, you ask? Because I made the plans one night when i was seriously bored and lonely and I just thought it sounded great at the time. I hate to use the poor guy for entertainment value but I'm a fun girl and I'm sure he'll have fun too, right? That is my justification for the whole thing anyway. :-) Merry Christmas everyone!

The Ihop Pineapple Stare-down

2009-08-15T12:27:00.018-05:00

Halp! Ihop is under attack by ginormous paper pineapples! These giant paper pineapples are vicious and randomly placed in corners, strung from ceilings, hovering over name tags, and even staring you down as you look at your menu. Not to mention that I now have reason to believe these vicious paper pineapples are the reason their pancakes now taste like pineapple poo. I was temped to take this one hostage as I was standing at the cash register but I can see it now--me with this giant paper pineapple in my lap in a high speed chase with the pineapple police. Probably not a good way to start out a saturday morning.

Tattoos

2009-08-11T20:09:00.008-05:00

Call me a tree huggin' hippie but it disturbs me that people tattoo trees. I'm honestly not one of those "green" types nor the "save the planet" types, but why walk up to something living and deliberately scar it for no good purpose? Poor little tree, I actually want to hug it...

Speaking of tattoos--I think i want one on my booty. Just a tiny one somewhere that nobody can see. It can be my little secret! :-) I've been looking for ideas for a while but so far all I can find are fairies with boobs, hearts with boobs, dragons with boobs, and ladybugs with boobs. Obviously men came up with these designs but did they ever consider someone that already has BOOBS would want a tattoo?? Maybe I should get a ladybug with a dick...

Day 2 - No Coffee, No Workee

2009-07-30T08:44:00.003-05:00

I suppose you're wondering what happened to Day 1. Well, I am actually wondering the same thing. My pathetic attempt at cold turkey coffee quitin' put my day on a frazzled spin in every direction possible.
One thing is for sure--I didn't succeed at it. I gave in to my addiction at 2:30 when I just couldn't take it any longer. I tried, really I did. I think true addicts have to be weened off their crack so I will make that attempt instead of going cold turkey. I'm such a pansy.

My Cofffee Addiction

2009-07-28T15:46:00.020-05:00

Today I realized that my coffee addiction is out of control when I bit someones head off for even mentioning my addiction. Granted, I hadn't had my first pot yet, but still. So I've decided to quit cold turkey. Man, I feel sorry for the poor souls that have to work with me during this time--but ohh well. :-)

There are a few other things that led me to this conclusion that I didn't want to mention but I figure it's necessary in order to appropriately document any improvements--if I make it that far.

Okay here goes:

-I dab coffee on my wrists to smell great all day
-I don't sweat, I percolate
-I sleep with my eyes open
-I have to watch movies in fast-forward
-I can take a picture of myself from ten feet away without using the timer
-My eyes stay open when I sneeze
-I find myself wanting to chew on other peoples fingernails

I figure my caffeine fits will be blog worthy so stayed tuned for my Cold Turkey Coffee Quitin' updates. I'm going to have my last cup though--gonna make it a Starbucks double latte. Yay! :-)

Day 1 starts tomorrow! Ciao~

RIP--Nose Picker!

2009-07-26T12:01:00.034-05:00

Okay Okay, so everyone pretty much "nose" I'm a MJ lover and I'll pretty much stick up for the man where ever it's due. But that doesn't mean I'm oblivious to the obvious freakishness he portrayed during the last decade of his life. Yep, he looked and acted like a wacko and still diligently claimed that he never had a nose job. Heh, that's one of the reasons I liked him. Yet through all of his unconvincing lies and wackiness we still remained loyal in keeping him on the front page of our celebrity gossip mags. Let's face it, we love the drama!

I'm a little concerned however for the paparazzi and media at this point. What ever will they gossip about now that MJ is dead?? It's almost a joke on the media of how they are hanging on to every last drop of gossip they can squeeze out of his name. What ever will they put pictures of on their front pages beside all those celebrity bikini flab pics? I think MJ's death is going to be the downfall of all gossip magazines. What other celebrity has consistently given us this much to gossip about? I mean comon'--didn't his mama ever teach him NOT to pick his nose? Although I do take pleasure in the jokes as in the picture above, I am without a doubt going to miss the wacky, yet amazing crotch-grabbin' fella. RIP MJ--and yes, you may be dead but you can rest assured knowing that the gossip about your nose and potato-head characteristics shall never die.

Now, who's life should we gossip about and ruin next? Did you hear about Britney Spears' 3rd boob job? OMG...

The New Revolution

2009-07-22T20:27:00.071-05:00

It is shockingly sad that this world has become one in which conformity is a method of survival. We have to conform to keep our jobs, conform to be accepted culturally and socially, and conform to the corrupt and absurd laws we have been given in order to remain "free" in our country. Today, most of us have either lost our ability or never learned the ability to think independently and to question everything we are told in search of the facts. For example, if our President tells us "All Asians are bad people", we are obviously going to question his sanity, logic and reasoning. However, if our education systems that operate under the control of the government use textbooks with history that gradually indicate negative feedback on Asians; over time our children and future generations will grow up conforming to the idea that Asians are bad people. No matter what the motive or message is, it all stems from the governments desire of conformity to create less resistance to their policies and thus having more control over the people--it happens more than you might think.
When we are young, we're taught that everything the authoritative adult says is fact and we're taught that there is no need to question the source of the source as long as it's an "official" source. The problem is that for something to be "official" means that it is authorized by government authority and with all due respect, that means nothing. That is why it is up to us to question the news, our history, our leaders, and the same concept should be applied to religion and following our parents beliefs. Of course it's human nature to trust that your parents know best in respects to spirituality and even political stances but it's highly possibly that their beliefs are corrupted by generations of the same conforming education and social treatment from our society.
As adults, it is up to us to question what we've been told since we were children. It's up to us to study, research, and critique our knowledge and source of knowledge to determine the truth, subjectively. It's time to re-analyze your perspective on life, determine your own beliefs, and this time, analyze it from an open frame of mind leaving out the years of crap that has been injected into your mind since early childhood. You'll find yourself seeing life through a different light and having strong convictions for what you believe in as our ancestors did generations ago-- and that's a rarity to have these days.
It's time stop being lazy, dumbed-down citizens that sit back and allow the government take complete control over our country. Individualism and freedom are natural rights we were all born with and we are being robbed of them daily by our government. 54% of Americans strongly disagree with the direction we are headed in this country and I hate to say it but those that only silently disagree on polls aren't helping the problem. It's our duty as American citizens to speak out loud and let your opinions be known--join the TEA Parties and the protests. I don't care if you're pro-life, pro-choice or whatever the cause may be, but do it because it's your right and because you may not have the freedom to do it much longer.
Our constitution is written so that the power of the government is derived by the consent of the governed and that means they work for us, by us, not forcibly so the other way around. If things continue to move in this direction without the consent of the governed, I truly believe and hope there will be a revolution within the next few years to conserve our constitution and reform our government. In other words--Power to the People baby! ;-)

Ima Surviva!

2009-07-14T20:00:00.006-05:00

NEVER, EVER, EVER come between a pregnant chick and her jumbo fudge-dipped ice cream cone. I'm tellin' you, I almost got my face clawed off for taking this picture. I just had to post this picture as I am one of the only survivors with proof that I lived through it. As you can see, she has only had her first bite of this choco-dipped ice cream cone--yep she's had her taste and now she's going in for the kill. This was prime chow time and I was pure interference at this moment.

I STILL can't believe I made it out alive.

2009-07-14T19:44:00.001-05:00

It's true what they say about Texas. Everything really is bigger and better and that includes breast sizes too--Chicken breasts, that is. This is a picture of just one rib from a texas cow--oh and i'm the cow on the left in the picture..

The O-Face

2009-07-14T19:05:00.010-05:00

O-faces are probably one of my favorite things about sex . I have literally taken a mental snapshot of all the o-faces i've seen in my lifetime along with a mental note of each particular O-moan. Okay okay i know it sounds bad, but let's be honest here--no one is perfect, everyone screws up, and I keep up with O-faces when I do. :-)

In particular the funniest one I have seen yet sounded like I stepped on a squeeling rat combined with a double chin smile with frownie eyebrows. Yeah, poor guy...he didn't make the cut as you can probably guess.

Here are some interesting (not so attractive) ones...

O-Faces

1.) Double-Chin/Smile/Frownie eyebrows O-Face - Completely unattractive - no, no, and no.

2.) The "Stunned" O-Face - Please don't stroke out on me, dude.

3.) The "Big Grin" O-Face - Should I get my camera?

4.) The "I'm sooo Serious" O-Face - Hmm, oh really?

5.) The "I'll kill you bitch" O-Face - We're shootin' for sexy, not the grammy awards, psycho.

O-moans

1.) "Squeely Rat" - Completely Unattractive and you can guess why.

2.) "Train Horn" - let's be honest, I've got neighbors that go to my church...

3.) "Jackass" - Okay, some girls like guys to act like jackasses but show me just one who wants their guy to sound like one. No thank you.

4.) "sputtered car engine" - Why, Why, Why do guys do this one?

5.) "deadly silence" - it's common with the virgins...but completely unacceptable from anyone else.

Remembering the G-Spot

2009-07-12T15:06:00.000-05:00

Last night was a blurr at the g-spot. It's weird how this picture came out blurry too. I thought maybe I could re-live the night through my phone pics to see if anything would trigger some sort of clarity. Evidently, my phone had too much to drink too. All my pics came out just like this one and some of them even needed some censoring. I guess a two hour 99 cent jagerbomb special makes for a blurry night and a painful guilt trip in the morning. See the blurry dart board behind us? Well it looks very familiar and that's pretty much all i recognize in that picture. Oh well, I guess it's not really important what happened there. It's not like I can remember anything while sober anyway.

He stole my dance moves!

2009-07-12T14:46:00.018-05:00

LOL...j/k. Meet Richard-- an ol' buddy of 10 years and a good wingman. Richard takes Wii bowling very seriously as you can see. He even has the back leg twist thingie down in hopes that the wii censors will give him a few extra points for effort. Even when he's not trying he's always making me laugh till my tummy hurts. I don't care what they say--there's nothing more entertaining to me than someone who's not afraid to cut loose and let it all hang out. Good form, Richard! :-)

Gotta love this guy...

Silence! I Keel You!

2009-07-08T23:14:00.001-05:00

I love Jeff Dunham! Isn't he just the cutest man you've ever seen? Silence! I keeel you!

Obama Trauma

2009-07-08T21:25:00.006-05:00

Sheesh, what did we get ourselves into, America? Uh-hem--excuse me, I meant to say "what did all these damn democrat and liberal voters get us into, America?" That's right! I said it. Even the loyal Obama drones are starting to say "what the hell?!" at this point. The stats of Obamas "passion index" are down by 5 points today which is a big drop from his previous -2.

I guess it's safe to say Obama is like a rock. Not as in "Solid as a..." but "Dropping like a..." Yep, I could say I told you so but honestly, it doesn't really matter at this point. I don't want to be able to say that about someone with so much power over my country's freedoms and future. I really hope Palin steps back up and runs for president in 2012! Love that chick...

Okay, Okay, I'm off my soap box. :)

Falling off the wagon

2009-07-06T14:38:00.007-05:00

Blogger was my first love when it comes to the Social media Bandwagon. Then came along Myspace, youtube, googlegroups, yahoo 360, skype, facebook, flickr, twitter, etc. It's pure madness I tell you! Everytime a new one is introduced, I log-on and enthusiastically create an account and search for all my old high school friends (again), post all my pictures, and then never log into it again. Friends, I think I have fallen off the Social media Bandwagon and I don't think I want back on. I tried, really I did, but I think I'm going to stick to blogger and myspace for now and just save all the rest for the teenyboppers. :)

The Next Generation

2009-07-06T10:54:00.020-05:00

Remember when we were teenagers and anything we could do to rebel from our parents was the biggest thrill ever? Well it was for me anyway and I miss those days. Our thrills were actually pretty innocent back then, like toilet papering houses, passing notes in class and in church, sneaking out with the neighborhood kids, and putting makeup on the boys when they fell asleep--that sort of thing.

I went to my family reunion this weekend at Lake Buchanan and it really brought back a lot of memories of my teenage years. The last time we had one was 15 years ago when my cousins, my sisters, and I were all crazy kids looking for excitement. There were about 15 of us that were teenagers at the same time back then and you can image the fun we had and trouble we got into for waking the babies with our loud "boom boxes" playing Ice Ice Baby from the roof.

This reunion was a bit sad because our teenage generation is all grown up. The cousins we had so much fun with back then are now consumed with babies, families, and jobs. The conversations we have are now politically correct and it's almost like the world took over my cousins and changed them forever. We no longer talk about what we want to be when we grow up or make fun of the weird aunts and uncles we have. We talk about politics, divorces, babies, and the jobs we have that are nothing close to the childhood dream jobs we once aspired for...it's weird how life happens and things change isn't it?

I did notice the new teenage generation that was there. There were about 7 of them and they were the annoying screaming babies that I remember 15 years ago. They are total punks now might I add! There is something different about this generation of teens though. Their idea of a good time is sex and drugs. I don't know why teens have changed so much in the past 15 years but the severity of it makes me wonder what the future holds for generations to come.

I blame Obama and I'll think of a reason later... ;)

Stamina

2009-07-02T12:03:00.009-05:00

Excuse me sir, have you lost your stamina? That's what I want to say to the current man of the month. All he ever wants to do is stay home and watch tv, cook, and eat. I don't mean to be vein, but comon' mister! I don't mind staying home sometimes but I also like to be active and go do things. It drives me nuts to just sit on the couch all day long doing nothing.

I think I realized this was a problem the day I brought my Nintendo Wii over to his house. The wii is designed to get people off their bums in a fun way so i figured it would be the perfect solution to the problem since we wouldn't have to "go anywhere" to do it. Do you want to know what he asked me?? "Is it possible to just play that game sitting right here on the couch?" Okay, that is the final straw. I think it's time for me to move on. Besides, his monthly subscription to Tracie is almost up anyway.

Death of an iphone

2009-07-01T17:34:00.011-05:00

FUN FUN! Gonna blog-it like it's 2009...

So, I somehow managed to kill my iphone last night. I thought it would be harder to do but apparently it doesn't have a built-in Tracie immunity just yet (I wonder if there's an app for that?). No really, i gave it the good ol' fashioned electric death sentence. I plugged it into my PC, clicked on my trusty itunes icon and ZZZAP! iphone goes bye bye. I was in a state of shock for about 30 seconds. I tried everything in my power to revive it, I cried mercy for it, and then I gave in and pronounced it dead at 8:47 pm. I even held a moment of silence in remembrance of all the great applications it had and all the fun we had together. There were truly some good times there between us--truly good times. It was so sad...as I nearly cried myself to sleep.

Little did I know, the iphone actually has multiple lives. Don't ask me how many but I'm sure I'll get to the bottom of that number eventually. I woke up this morning to a little ray of light--or phoneshine should I call it. Could it be? Could it actually be?? Did it come back from the dead? Yes indeed--and with some kind of super hero ipowers! Totally awesome. I will never take for granted the Jesus iphone again...

*Muuah*